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| Friday, July 7th, 2006 | | 11:36 pm |
| | Monday, July 3rd, 2006 | | 2:14 am |
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED so very bored i seriously need something new, or im just gonna...just, fucking something i dunno. god im bored. yes. bored enough to write in HERE. and COMPLAIN about how bored i am, to NO ONE, except me. THATS HOW BORED I AM. LALLALALALA BORED LALLALLAALA hm. maybe shunning social interaction is really biting me in the ass now huh. fucking hell. it wouldn't be so very bad if i had something to occupy my time. but it is that bad. nothing holds my attention now and im in desperate need of something new. ima crack soon and start doing something productive against my own will. fuck womenkind for not producing enough metal girls that fall into my lap! long live soilwork bored booooooored. btw i found that song thats in every fast-fowarded comedy scene of old time movies. believe its called yakaty sax. not sure by who but its the Benny Hill TV show theme song. fucking brits have funny music. but their swedish neighbors own them hard. the swedes got it all that a country needs. great music, woman, and food. in fact, here's a small ode to Sweden since im that incredibly bored and know no more than 2 people will read this. Ahem Sweden: A modern country that resides in Scandinavia, it is the home of 3 very necessary aspects of life. These being: Music, women and food. Sweden is well known for its music as many popular bands and performers hail from Sweden. It is home to many a great metal band and cotinues to nurture the coming generation of head bangin' metal lovers. Some bands and performers that have won many Noints (nick points) here in the states include Opeth, Blindside, In Flames, Meshuggah, Unleashed, Amon Amarth, Vintersorg, Entombed, The Haunted, Yngwie Malmsteen and SOILWORK. Soilwork, as we all know, is the fucking shit, so Sweden wins for being known as the country that spews forth awesome in metal form. next, is the women. i can't say much about them, because most of what is appreciated about swedish women is visual. another thing, i mean, theyre around awesome music all the time, im sure theyve grown a certain, affanity for it and food well, i dunno. dont they have good chocalate? and really fucking good swedish meatballs? you know, as i typed meatballs, i typed metalballs instead of meat. it was like that time i almost ate a pencil because it looked like the fries i was eating. it was right next to it and i was capping in jk2 so its understandable to nearly eat a pencil right? ...right? | | Saturday, June 17th, 2006 | | 3:14 am |
oh man my wrist is numb so, 3 A.M., hungry and feeling pushed. pushed to be a better musician, pushed to be a better person. i'd like to get philosophical on you for a moment. ahem. so why? why do i feel pushed? i dont know. i could just sit back and ignore alot of what goes on in life, but i don't. i take it, and hard. its hard for me to enjoy things, and its becoming especially hard recently. i cant play guitar without my wrists hurting and i cant play without kicking myself for not being better than myself. i always want so much and the expectations are always so high for myself. i cant write music without beign frustrated its jsut the same old shit. i need a wider musical knowledge, and i feel lead on. i cant teach myself, i'd never know whats right. fuck man, its frustrating i hate being lead on. honestly, its horrible. but, usually, its my fault. i expect shit, see htings in a grander light than it is, and all but will it to be true. lordy, im bored. i need something new. something maybe not, maybe some ONE new. i need fresh ideas and new thoughts, differnet opinions and varied views. new PEOPLE shift alot in my life. i tend to be alot more creative with my music, guitar playing becomes more fluid and shit is just so much more relaxed. i had that for a bit, but, i lead myself on and have no one to blame but myself, but new words, new ideas were still there, maybe not to what i envisioned, but there nonetheless. i dont know who the fuck reads this or would have free reign into my thoughts so i'll leave shit out, but god damn. i feel so sappy that i feel poetry coming on. i dont't like it. this feeling of getting nothign done is draining me. fuck that, wheres my pick. | | Sunday, June 11th, 2006 | | 7:11 pm |
bored, can't watch tv, dad's watching 60 minutes cant play guitar, strings broken past jk2 daily limit a while ago guess i'll play some more of this ole 6 string. ah the usefulness of having 3 guitars fell in love with this song and i simply can't put my guitar down. normally i don't care much for lyrics, but this song has just drilled itself into my head. take a listen, its great. I'm The One by Danzig. fuck me, i'm so bored that i think ill write in this regularly. fuck you =( eitherway, yea...akward. probably shouldve said what i really meant, but then again, i AM terribly afraid of being snubbed. im an asshole. fuck this, i feel like a reject writing in this. i will play guitar and shun livejournal! | | Friday, June 9th, 2006 | | 5:01 pm |
yay. summer. 2 weeks later yea, she's cool anyways, it was akward, yea, but nice. had a weird dream. ended better than what really happened. alot better. thats not saying much because i was retardedly slow witted and socially uncouth, more so than usual. we didn't even get a chance to get some food or actually walk around, discussing how we hate people. I didn't even get to show her my guitar playing! i mean wtf, one of the very few things i'm proud of and not embarresed or uncomfrtable about, i don't get to show off. Next time Sam Ash. Next time, hopefully there will be a next time, but with my performance that night, i really don't think it'll happen. i hope, as i always have, but i'm telling myself no now, ya know. i have such high expectations for alot of things, meh. who reads this shit? | | Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006 | | 11:23 pm |
mEGA
hold hold hold hold HOLD UP, what is it, 11:23 pm, wednesday night, February 22nd. aye. i sit here, in the dark of my room, annihilator softly playing in the background, and, well, my hands having a mind of their own. here it comes, sooo, sit back, get a drink, maybe some food, this is gonna take a while. A Summary of Neek: by Neek =D Lo. names nick, age:16. this summary is that of my recent life. one that began with but a few words mentioning how i had something on my head. it was...an interesting start to say the least. let us go back in time... /warble warble 9th grade: HIGHSCHOOL ZOMGGMOGMOGM. everything so fresh and so clean. NEW, holy, new place, new feelings, and new people! oh the people, so many new people to partake in this simple little life i had called my own. Sunset, aye. very interesting place with very interesting people. as with new school and whatnot, i thought, new beginning, booya lets do this. i began swimming. it was something to do to keep my mind off the simple troubles a teenager such as myself would experience when he reaches such a critical stage in his life. i swam my brains out. everyday, 40 laps, 50, 60., id push myself. why? i never really knew, but it was one of the few thigns i actualyl did push myself with. grades were pretty shitty, w/e, guitar still going strong, but swimming. it was new, fresh, and made me look good nakid. i realize soon, im mega lonely, so i set out to solve this dilemma. enter Veronica! Veronica: cool chick, shit hit off well i guess, but then, i dunno, im stupid? she lost interest in me before i could properly ask her out. /shrug. OK done before i continue, there were these 2 girls in my history class that were...how you say...slightly annoying but amusing. but so on, ENTER JOY: Joy: to begin, my brother (i duno how) met this girl Sofi (spl?) and had invited her to dinner with the familia. soo, friday night family dinner like usual, and we meet this Sofi, and with a random comment of 'hey, you'd like my neice, she listnes to screaming music too' wasnt sure whether to be insulted or not, w/e, but i was young and eager to meet new people so i gave it a shot. i get her s/n we talk, cool shit, movies, good times, more movies, her house, fun, w/e then. THEN. we stop talking? i dont know, but from what i remember, to me it seemed she never realyl wanted to talk or something, w/e. end? i said fuck it. enter in all seriousness PATTY Patty: patty, mega. ok look, we had been talking all this while, and she was quite the cool girlie. somehting different bout her. a girl i oculd actually be my dumbass self with and not have to worry about impressing or anyhting, those thouights never crossed my mind. cool friend, good shit. so during the whole joy episode, she was very understanding and helpful to me. good shit there, as you may know, i have trouble opening up to people and it just felt right opening up to patty. good help there, made me feel better. good stuff. time goes by, we friends. good friends. we talk lots, and like, you know...those feelings, liek when, you need to take a shit out of nervousness and w/e come? yea, those came. i was like 'mega?!'. and yea. in all seriousness, she was an incredible friend and i thought i had started to develope serious feelings for her. being young and brash, i make...movements! to establish my dominance (=D). they um, WORK! BOOYA!! really, i was incredbily happy. little did i know, itd be the happiest time in my insignificant existence! as time went by, our relationship grew stronger, we learned from eachother, many doors were opened and much was said, MUCH was said. late night talks were common place when we were together. i loved it. learned so much. i felt bad however, i was never too much of a talker. but was a deep thinker. i absorbed all of what she said with all seriousness and grace as was deserving of such a great gal. much time had passed. those feeligns of 'do anyhting, but make her happy damnit you! DO IT' were getting very strong. eventually, lil things i did or did not do would constantly seem to upset her, thus in turn make me feel worse about myself, how i FAILED (thats how i feel ok?) and it was uncool. i said nothing though, which is fuckign stupid of me, i regret not saying aynthing, but that is of the past. i didnt wnt to put any stress or tension on her becasue she deserved the best, i was convinced i had to do anything to keep her happy even if i had to make myself feel worse. but alas. mega. mega uncool. patty was unhappy, and was lacking what she wanted, nay deserved! i wasnt giving it to her, im a fuckhead what can i say. so....one of her friends asks if she could goto the movies with him. Patty asked me if she could go jsut to cheer him up, i say 'lol course'. she goes. i will leave out such details but needless to say, it felt as if my chest was collapsed. but, ya know what? we talked, we worked shit out, which is GOOD. GOOD. another chance at heaven on earth was acheived. mega!!! time passes, happiness and balance is restored. enter SAS SAS: new school wtf mate?! weird shit, w/e. learned to deal. time passes bym patty comes with (she so cool for that) and yea. here is where things go sour for my and my fucktard stupidity. i shouldve known then that i could make patty so happy, but i didnt. i let small thigns that i thought meant i was FAILING interfere with my proper judgement. this shit snowballed. fucking locomotive after awhile. so much in fact, world turns grey. Grey with uninterest. food loses its flavor, games lose their edge and music loses its magnificance. im fucking terrified. never had this happened to me before. why was it happening? unfortunately, all this makes me feel that im not making patty happy, and well, since i was so deeply, madly in love with this girl, i just wanted her to be happy, no matter what, even if i wasnt the one making her happy... i break up with her... /shoots self it took me 3 fucking weeks (good job retard) to fully realize the extent of dipshit i had done. i regret hte decision since hte moment i had made it. what the fuck had i done. what crazy amounts of total dipshit had i commited upon the one sweetest angel of the purest, divinest powers that lie above. there are gods i tell, there are. they sit up there, up where no one can point to, and work. work all the live long day on something to absolutely stun us. no, to shock us, just fucking, BLOW OUR MINDS AWAY. there line is cliche, but suitable. there is no better term i think, for it describes best what this girl had done to me. mind? pFF WHO NEEDS THAT, the heart has taken care of me for long enough and will continue to do so. but i digress. at the end of those 3 weeks, one gigantic whalloping whale of a sucker punch just knocked me out, all my breathe was gone, and my senses reeling. WHAT HAD I DONE. i knew i had to act quickly or lose what i had sworn my life to. i acted. i acted and was told to wait. i acted and am now waiting. i wait. i wait for what is nesscary to retrieve what i lost in near panic. this waiting, this not acting and just WAITING to see what will hapen is maddening. every muslce in my body SCREAMS in absoulute fucking horror to do SOMEHTING. but i am to wait. the heart reigns over all control of my body an the heart has been told to wait. how long will the heart be able to wait i am unsure, but hopefully it is not too long before it is overcome by the ever growing waves of love and it acts. it will act, one way or another. if it isnot allowed to however, it will surely die from the pain. and so i wait. i wait. | | Friday, February 17th, 2006 | | 7:55 pm |
mega! this is how bored i am, im updating my poorly treated LJ. so yea... whats been up LJ, seen any good movies lately? i have, it was called Ong-bak or some shit, this crazy china man kicked alot of ass. yea, thats pretty much the entire premise of the movie. um yea, >.> im sitting here trying not to actually write in this thing seriously, because i've never been to attracted to such journal things. always felt like it was a bit of a pansy thing to do. /shrug. but you know its hard with all this peer pressure! i mean all the cool kids are doing it. meh, its something to do while i find somethign else to do. so yea, i guess ive always had a thing for LJ. all the people that use it, all 9 million of them. i guess use it for hte same reason i sometimes do to. theres no one to talk to, but in that, we find other people who talk to themselves and in turn, everyone talks to eachother. or something. i admit, ive always had a problem with, how you say, opening up, to anybody. ive never really 'shared' my emotions and FEEEEELIIIIINGS regularly with anyone. ive learned to push shit back and deal ya know? and now that shits come to a head and i still have trouble actualyl talking it out with someone, im here. yeaaaa i honestly have no idea who reads this shit besides myself so i wouldnt know what to say or not say because i dont know who would read this. but meh, ill say what i think is enough. i've lost interest. in just about everything. and it scared the shit outta me. then i lost interest in being scared, which is kind of a vicious cycle. it sucks ya know? nick, the total guitar/music genius just not interested in playing and/or composing? nick, aka tunk the tank, not attending every raid possible? nick, the hopeless romantic none of you know not yearning for something? im broken man, wtf. maybe im like my computer. the power supply had just recently burnt out. all activity lost. some crazy shit happens to me, i feel overwhelemd for a bit, then nothing. wtf mate. i can't even listen to a song without wnating to change it to something else. i cant sit and listne to a song and appreciate liek i used to. im not being satisfied with the music i have, ive stopped writing music becuase of some shitfaced writers block, man, really, wtf. i can remember only one time where i was never satisfied to what i listened to, i dont remember why or what pulled me out of it, but i know it mustve been serious. its gotta be fucking world shattering to me if im not satisfied wit hthe music im listening to. meh, now i can see why (not the first time i believe) so many people are practically addicted to avid LJ users. something about throwing all your thoughts and problems out in words is so seductive. meh, ill stop now before i start editing how it looks and pay for an account here. | | Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005 | | 12:41 pm |
whyH!!
WHY!??! i just cant imagine why, can not possibly fathom or begin to grasp the concept of why im such a musical genius. its illusiveness startles, frightens me. but, intrigues me so. my past, it makes me dream, yes. i do not dream often, but curiousity, it, it does overwhelm us at times. but then again, my curiousity brings about great changes in my life. some say i am a very unactive and boring person. fuck you. im the most interesting and mentally active, good looking, guitar playing badass out there. honestly, i am the human race's intellectual and musical superior. now back to my curiousity. names, certain words that carry a significat meaning within them. they are like...actually, they are, nothing. the oppurtunists of the english speaking world. Luca Turilli what does that name mean to you? what does it recall in your memory? does it make you sleepy, make you excited, agigated, reminiscent? its a name of an Italian composer who delves deeply into metal. i have no idea what you can call his music or the music he is associated with. whatever the name, it is still just a name. the essence of it is what really matters. few composers have power over me. he is one of them. i admire the man for nothing but his music and his talent. now, curiousity helped me find that name and what it associated itself with. Luca Turilli does have a band named 'Rhapsody' which is heavily influenced on his writing, or so i assume. curiousity gives me the drive to dive deeper into the many possibilities that are avaliable to me after i graduate (yes i plan on majoring in Music Composition) curiousity gave me a name, in which i had held in comtempt and anger and confusion and regret, all in one massly jumbled ball of emotion hidden deep in the back of mind. curiousity was the tool, the enticer, to bring that name back out. and when it excavates hidden memories or feelings, it also brings out the need, nay, the URGE to spillover unto words so that they may form paragraph after paragraph of nonsense which means little besides the author of it all. i aspire to be the greatest composer in history. that will be my goal. i will do what is needed to achieve this goal before my death. i will be known as 'Campanini, history's greatest composer' the musica talent that runs through these veins pulses strong while asleep. i may not yet have the needed tools to awaken it, but i know, when it is loose, trained, and tended to with love, fierce command and patience, it will leave a mark on history. your life, my family's, all will know my work. for it is the voice of something beyond us. the voice of god you may say, i say the voice of music itself, what it was intended to be. its creation and loving appreciation will see musics true essence when i am through with this life. through these hands, will the greatest masterpieces be written. through these hands, i will hold hearts and show them the meaning of life. for that name, the ellusive name that no one can judge but me. it is ever shifting as are my reactions to such a name. but for now, my reaction is simple. simply out of control. | | 8:28 am |
i have....thoughts. sometimes these thoughts make me do things that i can't help. these thoughts... they make... they make me.. KICK YOUR FUCKING ASS. muahaha. why is metal too good for you? i dunno! why am i the greaest musical genius ever!? I DUNNO!!!! why does Rhapsody roundhouse kick you so hard that their feet went back in time and killed 37 lepers!? ...and why do guy dogs mount eachother and make strange jerking movements =\ again, the world will never know. | | Wednesday, June 1st, 2005 | | 9:24 am |
Patty gives the best ... cookies ever. whoaaa gf. good fight indeed. holy sheet. rdshrtjsktkly8k Current Mood:  satisfied | | Sunday, May 1st, 2005 | | 10:04 pm |
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see, im in love with this girl, and it seems i cant make her happy if im not with her. i only fear that shell think its her fault which it is obviously not. i hope she'll realize just because im not with her at every moment, that i still truely love her | | 5:21 pm |
| | Monday, January 31st, 2005 | | 6:58 pm |
Kiki <3
Look at me, I'm Nick and I'm a boy scout jedi. I never update this silly thing cause I'm too busy playing guitar or JK2 or maybe jacking off. :* I should give Patty a nice big hug cause she's so cool. Maybe I'll give her a quickie while I'm at it. And I should pay her back that chicken sandwich cause she's always hungry. While I'm at it, I'll give her a hugeass teddy bear the size of her. :O She's so awesome. I'm horny. Sometimes I look at pictures of old black naked men. Those wrinkles are so sexy.. rawr. Jk. I don't like old men. Cause that would make Patty jealous. Silly me, I forgot Patty knew my password to everything. Since all my accounts have the same damn password. Anyone could hack in and type things. This weekend I will do the Barefoot Mailman with the other boy scouts. Yey. Later I'll post which streets I'll be in so all of you can come see me. I should invite Patty too cause I know she feels ._. when I don't. Maybe I'm too cool for her. Yup. The end. --Nick, of course. Cause nik's cool! Current Mood: horny | | Friday, January 28th, 2005 | | 10:24 pm |
oh man, i love you, so much. im so sorry. i only wish i could be the best damned boyfriend for you. im so sorry, im shit, but i must still try to give you everything to make you happy. Because you deserve it all and much, much more. i've spent so long trying to hold things i thought would hurt you, that i forgot what a good boyfriend is supposed to do, and tell you everything. im sorry, but im now trying to change to better make you happy, always and forever. im sorry patty. i love you. -nick | | Sunday, December 26th, 2004 | | 3:04 am |
mega poned
THIS. IS. THE BEST. CHRISTMAS EVER. Isdvjsd !!! !lookS!!!!!!  ahH!!!!!! ANNIHIHOODIE!!!!  :D! among other things, my babe made meh this incredibly awesome sweater :o along with this awesome lil bear taht has saem awesome jacket :D and $50 a mic for my recording studio super keyboard :o and family guy DVD meg aponnneeed.>!~!>!> so :D, i just back from gameworks and fatty's chris'es house. Gameworks we knocked back a few beers, threw shit at the people who were riding the fake bull and threw a paper that said 'ride the bull or ride MY bull' at a large black man. fucking danny boy is crazy. so. then we went to chris's house, played pool, sang loud stoopit songs and was traumatized by chris's collection of fat women porn. got home, and now im talking to patty and mauricio. | | Tuesday, November 30th, 2004 | | 9:17 pm |
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o.o :update: i love my kitty. end. im marrying her | | Tuesday, October 12th, 2004 | | 4:58 pm |
no non on no no no no non o non onon onono noo no onononononononono. how come i have the feeling shes thinking twice bout this relationship when im so completley and utterly devoted to spending the rest of my life with this beautiful perfect angel. and i am in no way am exagerating. i love this gurl, im IN love with her, and i know, in my fucking heart, that always will love her, no matter, fucking, what. | | Sunday, September 19th, 2004 | | 1:25 pm |
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